The time is so short and so many preparations must still be made. We must move along quickly. The fastest path is to understand the Father’s gift of the Holy Spirit. So often, the Spirit is put aside, as if he is a wind, or a dove. These were just symbols to express a certain aspect of the Spirit.
Jesus gave the Spirit his real title, the Paraclete. He explained the Spirit’s tasks and even said that it was important that He go to the Father so the Spirit could come. “I have come to cast fire on the earth”, Jesus said. He fulfilled his promise when the Spirit’s tongues of fire descended upon all of us gathered in the Upper Room.
When I speak of God’s help, or God’s presence, I am speaking of a new reality. Just as Jesus died in history, so there was a moment in history when the Holy Spirit was poured out. This is the mystery which I want to take into my hands and share with you.
From the first moment of my conception, the Holy Spirit possessed me. I was his first born in time. He had already been working among the prophets, kings and people of Israel, but none of them, even the great King David, did he fully possess. I was the summit, the great daughter of Israel and the greatest work of the Spirit until that moment.
How the Spirit cherished me. Each moment He filled with more divine life than the previous moment. Always, he was lifting me up to the greatest divine union, day after day, year after year. All was done perfectly, without a single lapse. Not a single outpouring of his divine fire was lost. I kept all things in my heart.
Higher and higher he lifted me, into depths of the Trinity unknown to any saint and hidden even from the angels. Finally, he brought me to a place of the Trinity where I heard words, not mystical words that cannot be expressed but simple words that even a child can understand, “You will conceive and bear a son, and you shall call him Jesus”. God used an angel to say those words but they were really said as my soul was in the most hidden and secret place of all – the inner life of the Father, Son and Spirit.
